For quite some time now I've lived with the folks. You see there's a housing shortage here on the rez. It was really hard to move back in with the folks after living alone for so long. But After Grandpa dying of Cancer I kind of lost it in Ottawa. I was drinking a lot and I lost focus. I got into a big argument with my roommate and best friend. I got hauled in the police station and the next day was told by my friend that I had a week to move out, so I did.
Yes I was stupid, I'd like to say it was the booze but I really don't know, stress does things to people. I only wish I had made a better effort of saying sorry. I tried phoning a couple of times, but I chickened out cause I felt I deserved it and shouldn't be his friend.
That lead me to return home. Oddly enough it was the best thing to happen. It lead me to start a whole new company with friends who believed in the things I did. That company has now been running for two years now. Its been all up hill but its all been great.
My family has gone through quite the ordeal. On My dad's side my Aunt, My great Uncle and My Grandmother have passed away. On my Mother's side I've lost my grandfather, all of this within the last three years. The funny thing is that I feel its all been planned that way. I'm not Religious or anything but I have to feel that way. It has strengthened me beyond what I felt I could take. Just when I thought I couldn't take anymore this winter my Cousin Jason died of a snowmobile accident. The Accident was acohol related and it hit close to the heart. We were only a year or so apart from age and seeing the pain in my dad and uncle's eyes made me think alot about how I was livin.
Jason was... the son who would have taken over our territory when my uncle (First Born Son) thought it was time. To me, that signified a changing of the family guard. When he took over that meant we were no longer children but heirs aparrent to the family name and customs and upholders to our values and ways. Which meant no fucking up anymore and time to get seroius. Now... I don't know. Maybe we were supposed to be that way alot earlier. I don't now. Maybe I'll be clearer later. I'll Explain it later.
Mom
Mom has been my friend, I never left her side when Iwas a kid, well almost. To this day I think I'm still a momma's boy. I always called her while at college and always sought her opinion on matters of the heart.
Dad
If mom was the person who taught me how to feel, dad taught me how to think. It was kinda like going to business and law school. For Crying out loud the guy recieved an honorary doctorate for his accomplishments. He never attended any post secondary instituitions yet he was constantly asked to give lectures. He's met the Pope, Prime Ministers and more people I can imagine meeting in a lifetime. And the funny thing is that he treats all these peolpe equally. I've seen him meet with high profile ministers then spend an entire day with a person he doesn't even know.
Sanman
My younger brother is the kid who looked up to me. And the kid I forced to go home cuz I didn't want him coming with me. Me and him have become really great friends. He's 24 and I'm 27 so the age thing don't even matter no more. We fish we play we talk and we party together.
Phil
Almost lost this one. Glad I didn't. He's Mentally handicapped but refuses to give in. He's 21 but has the heart and mind of a child. In some ways I wish I was like him, innocent. I would give my life in a second if he could live a normal life. To me he's the greatest person I've ever met. He has seizures that cause him to black out almost every day. I know it bothers him cause he doesn't go out that much anymore. He's close to 6ft of not, but will handle a child like a feather, never ever letting anything hurt the child he's with.
Sis.
We've been through hell and back. Before Sanman and Phil were born our parents used to drink. It was hell. Now their "Saved". As Christians they live a very wonderful life and I am very very very happy to see that. I haven't seen my dad or mom drink for more than 18 years I think. Me and My sis have a bond like men who've been through war.